Chirpy, or that I would describe myself this late few days. For some reason that seems to elude me, I'm being... not myself this past few days. I find myself to seemingly become a slightly different person. The keyword is 'slightly', as in I fully realized that I am still perfectly myself, only with added flavour, which one might find either favourable or the other way round. If two different person enjoy a same dish, a slight change to the said dish may only be acceptable to one, and rejected by the another, as rule of subjectivity ultimately constantly apply.

I find myself to be heavily easily influenced by my list of songs. I find myself to change my mood rapidly in conjunction to the songs that my auto-shuffle hits. A melancholic remix of Parsee's theme and I became blue, an energetic remaster of an already energetic song and I became empowered and I felt as if I can take on every bit of challenges that fate and destiny may throw towards me. I love this feeling, confidence filling me to the brim, and I happily embrace the full flavour of emotions and psyche, I felt like I have much more energy than I previously was, although this energy is far from infinite.

Chirpy, as in, I actively engaged in, well, equally active hand-gesturing during conversation with my close friends. Not just that, I also became equally loud, perhaps to emphasize false confidence and friendliness. Yesterday, I realized that I developed active gesturing with my hands and arms. I felt like a little kid with ADHD, or perhaps I'm too unqualified to make a comparison of myself towards it, but still, I wasn't what I was just a mere few weeks ago.

But, if memory to serve me correctly, changes is not a thing to fear.

I'm trying to convert this energy towards drawing. I've been seeing batches of awesome artworks and trying to convert this feeling of awe into motivation. I want to improve, I NEED to improve.

Heh.

New semester left me quite busy and my schedule is both unforgiving and unfair indeed, I may have lesser time to art, but I wouldn't let this slip by just like that. I scored a 4 flat while still being relatively laid-back last semester, surely I can repeat the same this time if I can make myself more determined and work harder.

I'm striving for self-betterment. I know I can do it.